Thursday, December 08, 2005

Dealing With Loss at Christmas




Right now, I am tired of being an adult, especially as my father is in his final days of cancer. My dad was always a formidable man, someone to stand in fear and awe of. This is no longer true, and it scares even him. We had fun for five years saying that he was just "too stubborn to die" or that he was like a cockroach because you just couldn't kill him. Reality has now come quickly, and it has chosen a Christmas visit. My father was always good at catching me off my guard and finding that my room was not clean or my chores were not done, and now he has caught me off my guard again. I was not ready. I wonder, when Jesus comes, will I be truly ready for Him? Will I be one of the wise virgins with oil in my lamp, or will the cares of this temporal world consume my time and life? Are you ready? Posted by Picasa

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this at Christmastime. That has got to be so tough.

Thanks for the reminder about being ready!

DonnaB said...

Will be praying for your family as you endure this tough time.

Julie said...

Praying for you with tears in my eyes. We lost my dad to Muscular Dystrophy complicated by pnuemonia in August of this year and just thinking about Christmas has been hard for me this year. Fortunatly for us we know its coming and get to say our goodbyes and I love yous...I think this coupled with the fact I know I will see my daddy again someday really brought me through the trauma.
Email me if there is anything I can do!

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dad! Praying for your family.

Amber said...

I am so sorry to hear that you and your family are going through this, especially during the holiday seasons. Praying for you all ...